Saturday, May 3, 2008


Somebody up there is having a good laugh at my expense. A few days back, I had GLOATINGLY posted a comment on how self-important and self-satisfied I feel when I am down with some illness. Sheer HUBRIS.
Here I am now, feeling completely miserable instead of me-at-the-centre-of-the-universe. This is the merry month of May, when I'm on my summer holiday...but I can't even giggle, let alone laugh aloud.
I have met my nemesis, the sorest throat I have ever had, and eating and talking (two of the greatest joys of my life) are now two painful, throat-wracking/wrecking exercises, preferably avoided completely.
But that is not to be. I have to eat (and drink, water at least) and talk, too, as I am the only one at home, looking after a seven-year-old who needs a verbal-reminder-a-minute to finish her food/milk/homework AND a two-year-old who needs to be read four entire books of nursery rhymes before she deigns to sleep (and, of course, constant verbal cajolings and scoldings when she is awake).
In true Greek-tragedy fashion, I have had an anagnorisis (realization). The one thing I have realized is that a mother’s job is mainly vocal/oral/speech-based. And again, like an authentic Greek tragedy, this realization has come slightly late in the day….
I just want to bawl my lungs out, like a Greek chorus of old women, but every word I speak aloud is AGONY. The self-pity is there alright, but I just wish it’d go away, along with the soreness which seems to scratch down my throat and stretch across to my ears…Oh, for a catharsis of the catarrh....

GOD PROMISE : I will never, ever, be frivolous about fevers or tinker about with throat-sores, I swear on my Aristotle.


Jaquanda Rae said...

Damn. Too bad the sickness isn't worth it. Not even a sexy voice? (joking)Thanks for your comments on Bertha. Yep, I'm stuck on misery in love.

jyotsana said...

get well soon.i love the way u can laugh at yourself. i believe that the sincerest people in this world r those who can crack jokes on themselves. and as always i read most of ur posts coz i find em delightful.

thesparklingthoughts.... said...

Ya surely.Fossil fuel is one of the largest threat to global warming.

Nancy said...

When my children were toddlers, it did occur to me one day that, if you are not a talkative person (and I'm not), one of the hardest things to get used to about motherhood is having to talk all day long. You're forever explaining things or making pronouncements or just chatting about their interests (Disney princesses!!)

Tea and honey and a good book are best with that throat. I find E.M. Delafield's Diary of a Provincial Lady a great comfort. She gets measles.

Sucharita Sarkar said...

Thanks everybody,

Writing that post was truly cathartic, I'm feeling somewhat better now.

Jaquanda rae, SEXY as in DEEP-THROATED? No way, I've been trying to talk with my mouth only, without disturbing the vocal chords in my throat as far as possible.

Jyotsana, thanks for the good wishes and encouragement.

thesparklingthoughts, point noted. Your latest post was interesting.

Nancy, I totally agree with you. Since my throat has double-duty of talking (teaching + mothering), no wonder it rebelled.

Mina Jade said...


take care of yourself and be well soon.
And drink mint tea, it helps much!

Sage said...

I think there was a lot of sore throats around about then, and all down to a virus.. keep warm, take some paracetomol for the fever and something soothing for the throat...

Hope you feel better now.